shourai

This is probably the lamest thing I am ever going to write [in my defence I had lost use of my eyes for about 2 weeks now, which led to a lot of brooding time]

How do you chose what you want to do with your life? I have had a pretty successful run at academics and everyone I know has taken a job or is pursuing higher education. But somehow I don't like it, the place its taking me.And then there are things that I enjoy.

Games, the console kinds, not the flash based ones. Playing one has always inspired me to make one, got even a little hands on, but a career in it will take me probably the next 10 years and I surely lack patience.

Modeling, not the fashion kind but using 3d tools. It makes me feel like I can sculpt, well the prettiest women I can imagine, but theres hardly any scope of a career being here.

And animating, little stories like nagaraja or dhruv except maybe, a lot more sensible and meaningful. I've always loved the comic books I read but theres hardly anyone that would publish one today. The way the music, art and storytelling all come together, feels like heaven.

I am torn in doing things that make my life secure, and things that make my life hard but happy. How do you cope with that? And how do you know you won't regret it when it's too late to turn back.